He awoke again at 1:30 a.m. and I told him he must be having trouble sleeping because he's excited about his costume. He exhaustingly said, "Yeah, I guess you're right," and finally caught some much needed zzz's.
Jack Kornfield was quoted as saying, "The restless waters of the lake appear to make the moon dance." How great is it that my son is so excited about his costume (and I'll tell you at the end what it is, don't worry!) How great is it that the restless waters helped to make the moon dance. Every moment is perfectly perfect. Every moment leads us, just like a bridge leading land to land, to that very next moment. This becomes my prayer, my mantra, my ritual when I'm not getting the sleep I thought that I desperately needed as I watch my son sit with his rapidly beating heart. Letting go. Being. That's the beauty of seeing the world in this manner. Insomnia was the bridge to what's yet to come for this Halloween weekend.
For those inquiring minds, my son's costume is a "Failed Math Test." Last night he wrote in black ink on 2 pieces of board math equations, filled with mistakes. In red ink, he wrote his "teacher comments," one of which said that the person had to "...go back to preschool and stay there forever." My son found his voice and his ability to self express. I am so tickled for him to wear this to the school sponsored Halloween Carnival (along with the hat I made for him with a glued eraser and pencil on it). And with the anticipation that will come when school is relased and we're waiting to leave for the night, I will chant the words, "This moment is perfectly perfect."
And, of course, I throw in a few deep breaths.
Happy Halloween!
Lisa
